Now that I’m back in Southampton after a weekend in London, I’m back in the presence of things I dislike. I’m no longer surrounded by people who understand me, rarely surrounded by people who’s company I enjoy; workload seems heavier than ever, but also very demotivating. I’ve been back barely 12 hours, and my confidence has already started hitting rock bottom. As much as I try to carry my good mood from the weekend through the week, all these doubts are flooding in and filling my head.
I feel confused and lost, kind of unaware of the world around me. I feel stuck in some sort of quick sand, not knowing what I should be or need to be doing right now.