I made a mistake. In the spur of the moment, I made a decision – one that I can’t go back on. Though it’s impossible for me to go back and change it, I know I can use it as a stepping stone and learn from it.
But that’s not the problem. The problem is that I will be reminded of this painful and regretful decision every day as a consequence of me choosing to do it. I can’t cover it up or make it go away. I have to face it at some point every single day. Although it will get better with time, it won’t be any time soon. Until that time arrives, it’s going to take every bone in my body to channel enough energy and strength into my mind, so that I’m able to fight through.